MeantimeNars

• went on a road trip/beach trip with admin peeps at Pangasinan last last week. Ang sakit sa pwet. But being on the road was really fun. 
• found a "small spot" on the upper left corner of  ALL the photos i've taken. merde!!! i called the nearest Nikon service center I know which is located at Megamall (at taga bundok sa timog pa ako di'ba), and asked if they can still take a look at my baby even if I got it from the grey market and they said yes...for a freaking six thousand pesos. @_@ I wanna cry and die. Kahit yata hindi ako kumain ng isang bwan sa opis hindi ko maipapalinis ang camera ko. ganyan kababa ang sahod ko >_< 
• Broke. Of course.
• I realized just last week that it's already my third year at work. I need to jump into a bigger boat after all my loans have finished. Konting tiis pa. I job hunt every once in a while but luck hasn't come my way yet.
•  Baka mamatay akong dilat one day. Yun lang. 

MeantimeNars

I get the same question from production operators every other week. 

"Mag-isa lang po kayo dito?"

Today an inspector came in here to get her leave signed and asked "Mag-isa lang po kayo dito, hindi po ba kayo nalulungkot?"

Gusto ko na nga pakamatay teh eh. 

okay back to work.

Dami na namang iniisip. Wala ba talaga kayong kilalang pyschiatrist? >_< 

Miss B walks right into the lab, her eyes slightly swollen like she cried the night before, her cheeks starting to show signs of swelling, was obviously late, and apparently shaken.

"Alam mo bang pinagbuhatan ako ng kamay ng tito ko kagabi dahil sinabi kong hindi maganda yung ginagawa nya sa kapatid nya?"

And I just wasn't able stop myself from letting out a gasp of horror.

"Akalain mong hanggang alas-tres ng madaling araw kanina eh nagkakagulo kami dahil sa kagagawan nya?"

She proceeded to tell me about how her uncle was asking his sister to sign a certain document that would make him a sort of employee (a ghost employee in short) in the department she (the aunt) was working in, and how she (Miss B) did not agree to that... And how she took that blow to the face that also landed a spot in her poor old lola who happened to be standing behind her, and how they both fell to the ground.

Miss B was trying really hard to fight back tears, as she sort of struggled to tell me how she really wanted to fight back, but then, she remembered her condition (she had an operated right shoulder [all the way to her breast, actually] that might receive more blows) and her grandmother who might get in the middle of the brawl.

...and I'm still quite shaking until now.

attribbidda

It's only been months, but I feel like it's been a year (probably more).

I've never thought I'd be feeling more at peace with myself.

Now, I kinda know what I want:

I'm not going to ask for things for myself anymore. I'm asking for the betterment of his life: that things would get in line so he could finally free himself from the situation that he's in. Never mind if we'll be together or not, I just hope that his life gets better, period.

My lil' bro's been acting a little waaay to weird these days, I wonder what's up?